Not long ago, I fell. I wasn’t badly hurt, just a bit sore, but it reminded me of something I’ve known for some time now. As we grow older, the body changes, and with it comes a certain vulnerability. It’s not true for everyone. Some people remain physically strong and mentally sharp well into their nineties. But many of us find that aging brings with it new risks and unexpected challenges.
Since moving into this independent living facility, I’ve become more aware of those changes. I see people every day who use canes, walkers, or motorized chairs. I see the quiet caution in how some of us step off curbs or grip the handrails in the hallway. Some residents take medications to support memory or to manage the physical discomforts of age. Others appear truly frail, their bodies bent and their steps uncertain.
There’s no shame in any of this. It’s simply the truth of being human and living long enough to feel the effects of time.
Hospital admissions rise in older age for many reasons. Some of them are physical, some emotional. When you’ve had a fall, like I just did, you remember how quickly things can change. One misstep, one slippery patch on the ground, one moment of dizziness. And there you are, on the floor, wondering if you’re alright. It’s a humbling experience, and for many, it brings with it a wave of anxiety. You start to second-guess what used to be automatic. You wonder if it’s safe to walk the dog, go down the stairs, or even get into a car.
Alongside the physical changes, there’s often emotional weight. Anxiety. Depression. Loneliness. It can feel like the world is getting smaller and less steady. Even something simple like forgetting a bill or missing an appointment can bring frustration and sadness. Memory loss, even in mild forms, is another difficult part of growing older. Some of us manage finances just fine. Others find it more challenging, especially when health or memory starts to fade.
None of this is easy. And yet, within all of this, there are ways to keep going. There are things that make life not only bearable but meaningful.
For me, one of the greatest sources of strength and satisfaction is writing. In my earlier years, I worked full-time in private practice as a psychotherapist. I spent countless hours reading psychology books and research papers to stay current in my field and better serve my patients. But I never had the time—or perhaps the space in my life—to write about the things I wanted to write about. I certainly didn’t have the chance to be creative in the way I longed for.
Now, in my eighties, and living among people who share this stage of life with me, I finally have that chance. I have the time to reflect, to think deeply about the issues that matter to me, and to write about them. I can explore thoughts I’ve carried for years and express them in ways that feel true and meaningful. Best of all, I can share them freely. I post these essays for anyone to read. There is no charge, no subscription, no financial goal. Just words from the heart, offered to whoever might find comfort or insight in them.
And people do respond. They write to me. They tell me what they felt and thought as they read. I write back. This exchange has become a quiet joy in my life. It reminds me that my thoughts still matter. My voice still matters. And so does theirs.
So yes, aging brings vulnerability. But it also brings perspective. It brings time, if we are lucky. It brings moments of deep connection and new forms of purpose. It is not all about decline. It is also about discovery.
To anyone reading this who is growing older, or who has parents or loved ones who are, I hope this helps in some small way. Aging is not a failing. It is a journey. One that deserves care, compassion, and above all, understanding.
With warmth and gratitude,
Allan
Dear Kristin, the writing, the effort at creativity is therapeutic for me as well. Thank for you thoughtful comment and I will continue to write as I hope you will as well.
I'm with you Allan! At 86 I'm still living alone (with my dog), driving, seeing some clients in my part-time psychotherapy practice, playing the piano, writing. But jeez, it gets harder to get out of bed, and I too suffered a fall that provided me with a wound that took 4 1/2 months to heal! I write about it in "Navigating the Decline" on my substack "From There to Here." If I could figure out how to have a link to it, I'd include it here. A cautionary tale to be sure. Looking forward to reading what you write! Cheers!